A twist in time

Quick update.

2010-01-22T01:27:00.002Z

Wow. I seriously have neglected this blog. Ahh well, I don't really need it to update you guys anymore since I'm in BRUNEI!;DDDDD

Feels good to be back. (:

Happy anniversary(:

2009-12-05T19:06:00.005Z

Happy 1st Anniversary baby! (:
I have to say this is really something... for me, at least.
Thanks for being patient with me Ariff. I do appreciate it.
6 more days.
I'll see you in Brunei.
I love you.

I gotta change my blog song soon. ;DD

Looking back at those times...

2009-11-14T23:30:00.002Z

Out of habit, I reread almost all of the texts you've ever sent me baby. I must admit, it's been a mix of everything with you so far. Mind you, I'm not complaining even the least bit.

I read through the first handfuls of texts when we were still acquaintances, it then moved on to being more than that.. I loved how I found your "I love you's" at the end of almost every text. It's sweet. (: It's funny how I can imagine you saying the words in your texts to me as I read them.

I then came to the part where I had to leave. You tried to see me as often as you could.. before the day we had to part temporarily came. Rereading them certainly brought back memories of me crying, not wanting to leave. You reminded me of the times when you'd call me up on the way to work. You reminded me of the times where we would hug, never wanting to let go. You reminded me of the times where we could be together.. literally..

I remember waking up with a text which asked me to go check out a blog. That was truly heart-touching. (: We then went through a couple of arguments. I rather not dwell on that.

All I really wanted to say is, I really can't wait to get back home. (: Less than a month now. Wee Oh Wee Oh Wee. ;DD

Baby i'mma update you

2009-11-14T21:34:00.002Z

Yayy!Update!!I finally have some bit of decency to actually blog tonight. Okay, let's start with school. Yes, I know. I never seem to blog enough about school. Anyway, some time last week, my Philosophy teacher came to me during break, saying that some teacher wanted to see me. I didn't know any Miss Marie-Kay. So I asked him what does she want me for? He said. it's something to do with EAL, which basically means a programme for foreign students with language difficulties.

So right after my last lesson finished, I went straight to the EAL room, I then introduced myself to Miss Marie-Kay. She asked me if I was from Malaysia, in which I replied, "No, Brunei." She then asked if I speak Malaysian. That's how she put in anyway, So I told her how our language is more or less similar to the Malaysian languange.

Only then, did she explain what I was there for. There's a Malaysian girl who just transferred from another school and I was being asked to be her mentor. I thought. hey, why not?Right? So I accepted. 30 mins, every week. Miss Marie-Kay then added that she'll write reference for my UCAS application for my "mentoring". That's great right? It would definitely help in Uni. Sad thing, I won't be able to be Azmani's mentor for too long.. The Malaysian girl's name is Azmani by the way. I met her last Wednesday, she's really nice and is about the same age as Fatin. Moving on..

Yesterday, I went to Picadilly Circus, Oxford Circus and Oxford Street with Hamid and Nadine. We went right after school, we first went to Trocadero cause Hamid wanted to check out the new Tokyo Toys store. He's obsessed with anime and Japan. Just a random detail about him. Anyway, he spent like a whole hour browsing the store. Nadine & I got bored so we went around Trocadero, seeing nothing that interested us. After Hamid finally chose what to get, we went to Oxford Circus. I think Hamid got bored tailing us in Uniqlo, cause he decided to go home shortly after we went out.

Our next shop was Topshop. Duratul, that could so be your heaven. Haha. I've never been to the one in Oxford Circus. Its huge and crowded. As with any other shop here. It's so annoying. I wanted to find sheer tights but there weren't much. All I found were skin-coloured ones and purple ones. I might as well go bare.

I got tired of walking so we stopped by Starbucks to get lattes. We were back at home before 8. We're planning to watch New Moon soon, but not on the premiere date of course. It'll definitely be flooded with die-hard fanatics.

Happy 25th!

2009-11-07T19:15:00.002Z

Happy 25th birthday to my Ariff!(:

I'll make it up to you in Dec, okay sayang?
May Allah bless you with longevity and all the good stuff.
Amin.
I love you.

I still love that baby photo of you.

Happy 11th (:

2009-11-05T21:42:00.001Z

Happy 11th month anniversary sayang (:

Just a few more weeks!;DD

Sigh

2009-10-30T23:12:00.002Z

My mom started packing today. Just the stuffs that we're gonna put in the trunks. Another 7 more weeks. I can barely wait. You know what? I'm nervous. Haha. Nervous? Why you might ask. Well, getting reunited with you guys. Don't get me wrong, I'm really superbly excited but at the same time, I'm nervous. Haha. Silly, I know.

Hmm.. What else? I've got next Monday. Did I mention I'm on holiday this week? It's for the half-term. It's almost over now. I changed my mind about quitting school early. I'm gonna stop on the very day I really must quit instead. I'm so looking forward to December. Surely, it would shine most out of the rest this year. (:

"I'm sick and tired of not being around you and I'm sick and tired of not seeing your face," Long distance relationship, Asia Cruise.

A month and a few more weeks baby

2009-10-26T22:08:00.004Z

I can't express how much I'm anticipating for December, seriously. ;DD Sigh.. I can't believe I'm coming home soon. Makes me wanna scream my lungs out!!I could see my girls again!My baby!My Grandma!My cousins!

I just felt like blogging tonight. Bare with all the out-of-the-blues musings. (:

Anyway, thanks for making me smile today baby. Really turned my day around. *huggss* I'd give you a massive hug if I was around you at this moment. It's true what they say about distance, it does make what you have twice as strong. (: Right sayang?

Ironically, the faster I feel time's passing by, it's still slow. Get me?Then again, I'm probably looking at the calendar too often. Haha. ;D

It's gonna be your birthday soon baby. Sorry I can't be there. I'm sorry to Khai too, not being able to be there for your surprise. ): Next year?((:

Wait for me sayang.. Just a little while longer.. (:

"Although we're miles apart, I'll love you still," - As long as you'll wait for me, Passion.

Happy belated love

2009-10-26T21:00:00.000Z

Happy 19th love. I hope you had fun with Annie's surprise. (: Wait for my gift. ;DD

I miss you Ariff.

2009-10-22T22:20:00.002+01:00

Sayang, do you know how much I love you?(: You're still asleep. How I wish I could hug you all day and nevet let go. You know I miss you, right? I just can't wait to get back home.

10 months. (:

2009-10-06T17:23:00.002+01:00

Happy 10 month anniversary sayang (:

2 more months.
I love you.

Social and School

2009-10-04T15:02:00.004+01:00

I'm supposed to be doing my homework right now. But I have this sudden urge to blog. So, I am now blogging. Talk about being obvious.

I have no idea how to start this. So here goes.

I love my "busy" school life. Its just so electrifying. And yes, I do complain sometimes, but all in all, I'm loving it. It keeps me... well, busy!:D In Brunei, I'd delay all of my homework till the very last minute, but here, I don't usually do it that often. Only when I'm really really lazy. Another thing I realized going to school here is that, reading out aloud, giving out speeches to the class, voicing out your own thoughts and doing presentations is not as nerve-raking compared to when I was in Brunei. Funny how things work. Take for example, last week, in Philosophy class. Mr Robson happened to pull out my name, randomly, from his bundle of ice-cream sticks which he wrote all of his students' name on each one. He asked me what I thought the author was trying to portray in the article we just read. It was about a world where they conceal a little boy in a dirty basement who, in their eyes, is not as perfect as them. The world in which they live in, is described as the perfect world where people know not of pain. The little boy was not known of publicly. So I answered that a world that perfect, cannot exist and without the right balance of good and evil makes it look more unrealistic. I thought that that was wrong and completely out of line. But surprisingly, he said that it was an interesting point of view and that he had not thought of that before. What I'm trying to say is that, its fun having your views taken like that. In my opinion, it encourages healthy interaction. And what you have in mind doesn't just go on paper, but instead, it opens up more doors of judgment to other people who has different opinions on that certain matter.

It's just stirring. (: I'm feel so felicitous to have been given that ability to think again!In educational terms, I mean. I hate feeling stupid. So I just can not express how much I love having that "my-brains-are-like-gears-in-motion" kind of feeling. Get me?

Math here, has changed my way of seeing it in general. I just couldn't believe how Math is compelling, especially now. How I wished I paid attention in Mr.Singh's class back home, I could've taken Math AS last year. Sigh.

I talk too much about my subjects. Isn't it annoying?

Okay. Social life then. It's okay here, so far. Made a few friends. I can't complain. (: It's easy once you get to know people. Another thing I've learned, being arrogant won't get you anywhere. Not saying I am arrogant. But yeah, my people skills are not quite as polished as some of the social butterflies at home. I do try to be friendly without being "in-your-face". (:

Still adapting but it's okay so far. Less than 3 months till I get back. ((: 2 months & a half actually. So excited!

Hectic weeks

2009-09-18T22:45:00.002+01:00

My days have been pretty hectic these past few weeks. Let's just assume that this is the end of this week, okay? Back to my rambles, so I have been wanting to "accumulate" what had happened from the very start of the month till this day. This is gonna be a long long post. You have been warned.

I think it's best to start from the point where I had that interview, so here goes. It was just like any other interview, the basic ones, I mean. I was the first one to be interview. Oh luck. The interviewer started to ask me questions on what I intend to take there. He then, took a look at my O level grades. Here comes the bit where I was slightly upset. He assumed that O level's are equivalent to their version of O level's, which are GCSEs. When, in fact, they are not. Taking that to account, he said that I may not be able to take Biology as one of my subject choices. I thought, that's fine, I'm not gonna stay for long anyway. So I chose Geography. With that settled, I was to await an email from the school, confirming my acceptance. On the next night, I received a call from one of the teachers in charge, saying that I could not take Chemistry. He offered me Philosophy instead. I took it. So my subject combinations at that certain point was Math, English, Philosophy and Geography.

Which, I think, is not so bad. I received the email the next day after the call. The email contents were... how should I say.. not very informative. The main details that I got was that I was accepted and I had to come to school tomorrow. They did not say why nor state that tommorow's the day on which school starts.

It was a Friday. Let's just put in this way, I ended up going home way earlier than expected. I had a fresh start on the following week. I'm telling you, that school is just crazy. It's really big and crowded!! Kids could get trampled with the constant bustling about of bodies. Did I mention the school ranges from Year 7 to Year 13?

About my subjects, I've got absolutely no objections towards Math which is amusing, cause I hated Math back in Brunei. With English, I'm quite turned that it involves more of literature rather than analyzing speeches. And it's at those times that I wished I had lived at the time where Shakespeare's talk would be easier to decipher. Although, I wouldn't think I would understand English that well as oppose to now.

Geography is more or less a refresher from my one and three-quarter of years it has been absent. The invigorating idea of studying Geography here is that you get to go on field trips and I'm far from talking about road field trips. In February, there's a field trip to Barcelona. Isn't that cool?Pity, I'm not going. Oh well...

Now, there's a reason I'm choosing Philosophy as the last one to mention. I hate it. Seriously. There is no doubting it. I freaking hate it. It mainly talks about free thinkers and how they think and religion. Of any kind. One of my philosophy teachers said that they're gonna invite religious people over to talk about their religion, obviously. And at a certain point, we're gonna study the bible. Truly, I have no comment.

So far, I'm still adapting to the school. With everything, I'm trying to cope well.

9 months, 3 more.

2009-09-05T22:28:00.002+01:00

Happy 9th Month Anniversary sayang!(:

Wow. 9 months, tell me that's something?;D
3 more and I'm coming home.
You just wait.

I love you, Ariff Yusri.
More than life itself.

I'm not dead, just inactive.

2009-08-31T19:06:00.003+01:00

Hey guys. So it has come to my attention that I've been neglecting my blog for quite a while now. Why? Cause there's not much to blog about ever since the start of Ramadhan. I mean, we don't go anywhere nowadays. Except for nearby shops.

So everyone around the house is pretty much passive. That's the opposite of active right? Oh yeah, I've got my interview tomorrow. Wish me luck (:

Another thing I've recently discovered about myself is my growing interest in make-up. Yes, make-up. Mind you, I do not want to look like the less experienced people. If you know what I mean. (: My collection is still relatively small, since I have yet to go to bigger stockists. And I haven't really used most of the things I've already bought. For now, I'm just collecting.

So yeah, that's a mini update about me. If you'd even care that is. Haha ;D

"I don't want Mr.Perfect, I just want the real thing," -Homework, Prima J.

Miscellaneous

2009-08-22T13:28:00.002+01:00

First of all, I'd like to say...

"Selamat berpuasa to all muslims out there,"(:

Yeah, that does look like a nice way of starting this post. Moving on...

My days have been more or less normal and boring. I know, how can you stand that? One would ask. I don't know. You know how a typical chat session would be with me?

Person: Whatchu up to?
Me: Nothing much. Just chatting. You?
Person: Same.
Me: Boring ku eh.
Person: Aku pun.

With Ariff, it has a little tweak.

Me: I'm bored.
Ariff: You're in UK! And you're bored?

Or at least that's how it goes.

Well, it doesn't really make any difference, does it? Regardless of where you are, when you've got nothing better to do, you get bored. Ariff goes on about how I'll be when I get back. I don't think I'll ever get bored with my precious ones around, including the BFFs, of course. (:

Can't believe it'll be September soon. Time flies so fast. Aren't you guys excited I'm coming home soon?;DDD Haha!I know I am. Just can't wait.

Promised photos.

2009-08-17T14:23:00.007+01:00

Sorry if it's not so clear. The photo of the photo is taken through a frame. Cause the metal clippings that are holding the cardboard piece behind it is hard to remove for scanning.

Its in the air you breathe

2009-08-16T21:34:00.003+01:00

"We're only humans, seperated by our thoughts," - Human, Skye Sweetnam.

Today, we went to Windsor Castle. It's a castle which Queen Elizabeth and the other Royal family members go to on weekends. So its kinda like a weekend palace. It was really hot. Wasn't such a good day to be going out and about. Anyway, we went for the audio tour. The part I enjoyed most was the Moat Garden. It was filled with tons of different types of flowers. The red roses were pretty huge and healthy looking, not to mention, they had that faint smell. Soft and powdery.

We even went into the King's chambers. Photography is prohibited in there, so no photos of the chambers.

After that, we walked down the small street opposite to the castle's exit gate. We came across a photo studio where you can dress up with clothes from the Victorian times. Thought it was cool, so we gave it a go. (:

I chose a simple brown dress, with a cream lace puff skirt(?). It had light coffee-coloured roses on the shoulder straps. Finishing up with a tiara. Fyi, I was the only one with a tiara. Syah, Fatin and my Mom had hats. I'll upload the photo next time. (: Haha. I look funny though, in it.

So yeah, that was the most fun bit about today. Dressing up!

Just to share.

2009-08-14T23:52:00.002+01:00

Must watch!!;D

Bored to my wits.

2009-08-14T12:26:00.003+01:00

So I went through most of my posts last night. I think it was before I went to bed. Anyway, I've realized that I blab about my boyfriend most of the time. Hey! I can't help it okay. He's like a topic that I won't ever be able to cover fully. Or at least that's how I picture it. ;D

It must be annoying for you guys huh?I know that certain someone is anything but annoyed by it. Right Ariff?(:

On with it then. I don't know what to actually blog about. So I'll just be random. For the past few days, I've just been spending it at home. Not going anywhere. Y'know, I should be really really pale synthetic white if this continues on. Hmm. What else... Oh yeah. My Dad's planning to bring us to a nearby beach sometime this summer. Before school starts, that is.

I don't know why, but I'm really nervous about my upcoming interview. I mean, the letter ended in a "expect-the-unexpected" way. Something like a "you better come prepared or else" kind of thing. Yeah. Not too glad about that. I don't really know what I'm suppose to read or have in mind. I really wanna get into this one, cause trying to find another school would just get me back to square one. The uniforms a plus too. (: Isn't he the cutest?(:

I down, 5 more to go. &oh. another 30 along the way.

2009-08-10T23:52:00.002+01:00

I made it! I had my sungkai around 8.35pm. Maghrib came early than I expected. I was bummed when I remembered there are no dates around. As a substitution, I ate baklava from since its sweet. Have you guys ever tried it? Nyaman~ I like the fact that there's a lot of variety to it. Wouldn't be appropriate eating candy, wouldn't it?Yeah, I thought so too.

One thing I love when I do fast, is that my Mom always makes me potato meat balls. (: &today, she did! Made my day. I'm a food lover. Can't help it. ;D

Okay. Logging off now. Nights.

Off to Manchester tomorrow. This time it's for real. (:

Just one lazy Monday

2009-08-10T13:27:00.003+01:00

Our trip to Manchester got postponed since my parents headed off somewhere to pick-up something. Yes, I am that clueless. Anyhoots.

Yesterday, I attempted to fast, but I broke it around lunchtime. Haha. Maghrib here is roughly at 9ish, night time. So yes, imagine that. I'm doing this solely to pay off my fast(ing) debts.

Today's my second attempt to complete my fast, and I mean the whole day.Image from Google.

G-Force

2009-08-09T16:36:00.004+01:00

Saw this yesterday. It was okay. Not my kind of genre. But okay. Give it a 6/10. I did enjoy the fact that it was in digital 3D. The cinema people provided the 3D glasses. So yeah, it did kind of added that extra kick to it. Which made it not quite that boring.

~~Heading off to Manchester and Old Trafford tomorrow. (:~~

What's up with my world.

2009-08-09T14:52:00.002+01:00

I miss the days when we could just kiss our troubles goodbye.

You don't know how much I am missing you.

Aku mau ke Bali

2009-08-06T19:25:00.002+01:00

Rere came over for lunch today along with her family. I don't know how, but we eventually talked about Bali at some point. She told me we could hang out together if I ever happen to go there. Hearing her talk about the beach tempted me. So I was thinking about choosing December 2010 to go there. After my A levels. But we'll see how it goes. Told Ariff about this. Wanted him to come along too, he said, it'll be too good to be true. Which is not quite far from the truth. Arghhh. Boring.

You guys, wouldn't that be fun if we were to go to Bali together? You guys being: kamu dua. Yes, kamu. Kana suruh kan tu?):

Complicated

2009-08-06T18:49:00.002+01:00

Ariff, this one's for you.

I misinterpreted what you said about us being complicated. I am sorry. You know how my mind works.. At least, I think you do. Hahha. Anyways, you said that we, as a couple, are in a complicated situation. That's obvious. With the massive distance and all sorts. I'm very impressed by you. (: Really, I am.

Like you said, we'll still going on strong. Despite not seeing each other for almost 8 months now, and that's gonna stretch up to 12 months in a matter of weeks.

Yeah. We're thick like lava. ;D

At times, I think I'd go insane any minute. Cause I miss you way too much. Not exaggerating. But then, your face floods in my mind. Almost immediately, I think of how you're feeling about this. Most probably the same as what I'm feeling. So we're in this together. That's enough to keep me being sane and anticipate the future, with you around, close to me.

I love you, Ariff.

I could say that over and over again. You know that.

(:

2009-08-06T15:28:00.003+01:00

Happy 8th monthsary syg ((:

I don't think I'll ever get tired of saying "I love you, Ariff," to you.

Wait, I know I won't ever get tired.

Cheer up.

2009-08-05T18:36:00.004+01:00

Cheer up sayang. I wish I could be there for you, to lend a shoulder, to give you a bear hug. Telling you that he's not worth it and that you deserve someone much more better.

P/s: I miss the crazy times we had. And the normal ones too. ;D I miss you Annie. I miss si Khai jua. ):Still can't believe we tagged along with Khai from Lambak all the way to Tutong on her bro's wedding.

This was one of the best birthdays I've ever had. Thanks to you guys. (:

Remember this one?Behapa tani tu ah.hahah. All I remember is that I had a plus one with me.

This was fun ;DDD. Wanna do it again!!

Update.

2009-08-03T23:56:00.002+01:00

Hello dead blog.

Been so busy lately. Last week I went to Paris with the family. Landed back in London last Thursday. Took Friday and Saturday as an off day. Just last Sunday, I went to Sea Life Aquarium. Was dissapointed with the few sharks they had, not to mention, their size. And just today, I went to Bath. Really amazed with the Roman buildings there. One word to describe it; wow. I'd love to choose that area of England if I get any chance to further my studies here. It's oh-so-relaxing. (:

I'll surely post up the photos next time.

Oh yeah, currently obsessed with Mariah's single, Obsessed. ;DD Haha. Yes! Aku sengaja. But it's true. I'm lalalala-loving that track.

"It sometimes, surprises me, the lengths a person would go just for .......
Starbucks Coffee,"
-For Abg Jim who went to Miri, just for Starbucks Coffee.

Mumbles and murmurs.

2009-07-26T23:02:00.003+01:00

Just a few more hours. I haven't even packed yet.

Will be leaving the apartment at 2pm tomorrow, going to Luton Airport via King's Cross Station. The flight's at 8pm.

Scheduled to touch down at Charles de Gaulle around 9.15pm.

So.. Au revoir, a bientot and salut guys.

Prends soin de toi.

"I miss touching your face, gazing adoringly at your eyes, seeing that grin I love. You make me feel like I've got my everything already, Ariff."

Antam saja.

2009-07-24T20:46:00.004+01:00

Less than two more days 'till my trip to Paris. (: The flight's scheduled at 8ish pm. I won't be taking my laptop with me. Since Babah said we're travelling "light". Meaning no bulky things. Duh. But I'll be stating my whereabouts through facebook. As if anyone would care!Hahahah!That reminds me of something my cousin, Nurul, said to me when she was around.

Nurul: Why do people blog?It's not like anyone would wanna read things about you anyway.
Me: Hmm..

Got me thinking, why do I blog?To kill time of course!Also, to express myself, pour out my thoughts and punch in my rants. Other than that, it's just fun to use actually.

Anyway, Paris. Yeah, you guys will be getting, "Anne from Paris, with love."
I love that. Hahha. Nadawah. Not gonna rub it in...... too hard. ;DD

This is how long my hair is. Well, just the back anyway. Don't think you can see that well here, its the best photo I could take by MYSELF of my back. Fatin refused when I asked for her help. &yes, my hair is very black. Probably gonna tint it to another hue one day.

Blocked nasal airways.

2009-07-20T15:21:00.003+01:00

To Annie: Sayang, aku nda online pasal aku demam. Sorry. ): I did went online a while ago, but you're away I guess. Save the deets for me, okay?

So yes, dear invisible readers, I am sick. A mild one, and no, it's not the swine flu. Nauzubillah, god forbids. Anyway, today I received to letters by post. You know, it's so exciting getting things by post. It's like you don't really know what to expect. You rarely get these kinds of things in Brunei, well, I'm speaking for myself. I NEVER get things or letters through post back in Brunei.

On with it then, one was from Harrods, which contained my official rewards card. The other, was from Holland Park School, telling me about the interview date and a few things to fill in. My admission interview is on the 1st September, and it'll take place in Thorpe Lodge at 9 am. Surely they didn't mean Thorpe as in Thorpe Village?Cause that's way way way far from London. The school itself is located in Kensington, which is in London. I'll check on that soon.

"I'm really concern," -Ariff on me being ill.

iPod.

2009-07-17T22:24:00.003+01:00

Last Tuesday, a friend of my Aunt's touched down at Heathrow airport, from Brunei. My Aunt told Syah that she had a few things for us.

So my Mom went to get the "things" via my Aunt's friend.

She gave me an iPod touch. (: Thank you so much Aunty Suhana. Really appreciate it.

Syah got hers a wee bit earlier than us, Fatin has one too.

"I feel such a connection, even when you're far away,"
-Alicia Keys, Diary.

Their visit

2009-07-17T21:35:00.009+01:00

I'll let the pictures talk. (:
Locations: Hyde Park, London dungeon's building, London bridge, Ranoush Juice, Starbucks, Knightsbridge area, Madame Tussauds, Big Ben, Bowling Alley-Arcade right beside London's aquarium and London Heathrow airport.

The red things are the tickets we've collected from playing the games.

They kept reminding me of that certain someone back at home. ):

Batman!!Excuse the tummy.

A teary smile

2009-07-15T08:46:00.002+01:00

If you happen to stop by on this page, take a moment to read this.

I don't know what's going on, nor do I know how. I'm telling you that the suspense is really killing me. Already, I feel so useless, unable to do certain things to help. Random thoughts are constantly running through my mind. If it's space you need, I'm more than happy to oblige. But don't you do this to me. It seriously is depressing not knowing anything.

An extract.

2009-07-14T14:00:00.002+01:00

(2:43 AM) aiien.:	nada. i just wanna marvel at ur face
(2:43 AM) SF07.:	ok? liat tah puas2
(2:43 AM) aiien.:	hhhahaa u look ridiculous syg
(2:43 AM) SF07.:	hahahahhaa
(2:43 AM) SF07.:	i am ridiculous hehe ngantuk tu

When stupidity takes flight

2009-07-14T12:51:00.003+01:00

Never have I heard Ariff being so down. Cheer up baby. He called me this morning, a low voice speaking on the other end. I felt useless having nothing but words to help him feel the least bit better.

Sleep well you.

Mau tidur ):

2009-07-10T00:29:00.002+01:00

It's 12.29 am right now. I should be in bed, but I can't sleep. Hate it when this happens. Okay. I'm thinking of something to blog about..

Thinking...

Still thinking...

I got nothing. I wish for sleeping pills at this moment. Where's the genie when you need him?

Boy you know eye eye eye.

2009-07-09T21:48:00.005+01:00

Remember this one?(:
18.11.2008.

I seriously am missing you.

Evian

2009-07-09T00:45:00.000+01:00

I gotta say. that's pretty neat. :D

Random.

2009-07-08T23:35:00.002+01:00

"Ka anne, cut off your hair, it creeps me out," Fatin said as she pointed to my back, her eyes widening.

"It's not that long," I replied. Looking past my shoulder.

My hair that's behind my head is now measuring up to more than half of my back. That's not so long right?

The sweet spoiler.

2009-07-07T22:02:00.001+01:00

(1:51 PM) aiien.:	have u ever seen the notebook?
(1:51 PM) SF07.:	movie?
(1:51 PM) aiien.:	yeah
(1:51 PM) SF07.:	ingat2 lupa
(1:51 PM) SF07.:	i saw the last bit tapi inda me paham hehe
(1:52 PM) aiien.:	haha.okay
(1:52 PM) SF07.:	i heard its touching
(1:52 PM) aiien.:	yeah.. me alum liat.
(1:52 PM) SF07.:	ceta lama jua tu kan
(1:52 PM) aiien.:	yeah
(1:52 PM) SF07.:	cana u tau bout it
(1:52 PM) aiien.:	well, i was searching for teddy geiger's song arah youtube
(1:53 PM) aiien.:	kali he did a version of tarzan's ost, you'll be in my heart kali me click then ada pasal the notebook
(1:53 PM) SF07.:	owh
(1:53 PM) aiien.:	kali i read about it on wiki i wanna get the dvd soon
(1:54 PM) SF07.:	owh hehehhe siuk plang i heard jan sja u nangis hehehe
(1:54 PM) SF07.:	me nada tu kan hug u :p
(1:54 PM) aiien.:	yeah.. from the creators of a walk to remember hahhaa right i so dont cry
(1:54 PM) SF07.:	haha iakan~~

When destiny calls you

2009-07-07T15:44:00.002+01:00

I've noticed that I haven't been blogging much these days. Took me a while huh?;D Anyway, I had the best two weeks of June/July with my cousins, aunt and uncle who just went back to home base last Saturday. Can't wait to get back home guys!

I've seen Transformers 2 last Sunday. It was cool. (: Not much of a fan though, but it was still cool. I am now looking forward to Harry Potter 6 which hits cinemas on July 15. Another one I'm looking out for is The Proposal. I saw the trailer before Transformers 2 was playing.

How ironic is it that during the time we had visitors over, it was scorching hot in London, but now, it's been raining ever so often. I even had to put on decent lounge pants to bed.

I received two letters from Holland Park School a few days ago. Stating that I have to come for interviews for the subjects I chose, which are not until the end of August. I'm just hoping I could shed a few kilos when I do go to school. Seriously, I've been gaining weight. The school's quite far from the nearest tube station and bus stand. That'll help, I guess.

It's not long now 'till December, I'm so excited!!Haha. Don't you guys miss me?)):

"When destiny calls you, you must be strong. I may not be with you, but you've got to hold on."
-Phil Collins

7 months. (:

2009-07-06T00:00:00.000+01:00

Happy 7th monthsary to us!

Such a great blessing to have you, Ariff. (:
I love what we have and share.
I love you.
& I dare say, forever.

Glad that you're all mine

2009-07-05T19:28:00.000+01:00

Loving this new track. But why the hair??!

You're my hunger and thirst.

2009-07-01T21:57:00.003+01:00

A message from Ariff:

"Sayang.. its only been a few hours n i'm already feeling so empty without u.. :( i want to be with u so badly rite now.. seeing u leave tadi was so sad n wat made it worse was that i cudnt hug u till the very last min.. :( *MuAhZzZzzzZzzZzZzzz* I love u so much sayang.. u take good care of urself k.. n pls do keep in touch with me always.. i'll be here to love u till the very last breath.. =,)"

Logged into my inactive friendster today. You sent me this on the day I left for London. About 6 months ago.

Ave Maria

2009-06-30T19:35:00.002+01:00

I'm in love with this song. My cousin said that this certain song has a relation to the Catholics. Well, it's okay if that isn't my intention, right?

My screwed college life.

2009-06-20T18:01:00.004+01:00

I can't say how much I despise London for taking away my valuable senior year. I vowed to myself that I'd be preeminent in my studies when it came to my senior year. I'd willing work my behind to achieve my goals. But that was way before I'd known my Dad was sent off to London to do his masters.

True, London is exciting. There's always something right round the corner. Take away all that, what does that leave me with.. ?A rusted brain. Especially with me not going to school at the moment.

Talked to Ariff about my futura, I've always wanted a career in medical studies. Its what I've always dreamed of. Working as a medical doctor. I've been so keen to learning Biology. I dare say, that I've considered it my nature even, having it as my strongest collateral. I've always thought of it as being my main focus.

Then he suggested to start considering Law as an alternative. He made Law sound so much more stimulating than medical. So yes, I now have a much more wider range to rake over. I thank you. (:

Let's just see if I can measure up to their requirements next year. For sure, it won't be smooth sailing. For now, I have no choice but to let visions of my senior year haunt me endlessly and hopefully motivate me into becoming a zombie who knows nothing of the word fun or anything closely related to it.

Syah lifted Ariff Jr from his place.
"Mikin barat kau ani eh," She said as she held the Grey Bear like a child.

What i want

2009-06-17T21:34:00.003+01:00

"There's nothing I would want more than to be in your arms,"

Feeling those strong firm arms wrapped around my shoulders. Makes me think of the safest place I could ever be. I love the way you hug me so tightly, never seeming to ever let me go. When you literally sweep me off my feet. Carrying me around as though I weigh not more than the lightest person on earth. I love having the thought of nothing and no one could part us. I really do believe in that.

Always making me laugh with your moment spoilers. (: You truly are one of a kind. Making me feel like I'm the luckiest person to have been blessed with such a wonderful being.

Is it really that long 'till I get back? Feels like it's been ages since I last touched your face.

"I love you forever, "

P/s: With you, I'm spontaneous. Everything comes natural as breathing.

Something to do with my face

2009-06-14T21:48:00.004+01:00

This is one thing that I think I've never blogged about, as far as I can remember. My face.

Like most girls... and guys. There was that frustrating moment in your life where your face gets major breakouts all over. I've had my fair share of that. Yes, it was torture. You lose your self-confidence and may also feel threatened by other fellow mates whom are blessed with flawless skin. Boo you flawless people!!

I started to get breakouts when I was in Form 4. At first, I thought it's completely okay to get spots since everyone has them. How naive. Haha. So I didn't do anything about it. I didn't use any skincare product or whatsoever, cause I remember my mom refusing to buy me any of those when I was about 12. Fyi, my skin was still crystal clear at that time. She said, it'll just do damage to my face. Months after months, YES MONTHS PEOPLE! My mom couldn't stand looking at my state. Haha. My face was literally a tomato patch. She booked me a facial appointment at Herbaline. My skin did clear up after the first session, but it didn't last long. I had to go for facials thrice a month. Other than that, I had to use a couple of their products to prevent future breakouts. I had a soap daily cleanser, toner, face spray, some organic liquid from something I forgot and a "moisturizing cream".

A few drawbacks, the soap made my skin feel like it's been strecthed and nailed to my face bone.. Wait, is there such a bone?You get me right? Moving on, yes, it made my skin really dry. The toner, it was okay. But it was time consuming. The rest of it was okay, except for the "moisturizing cream", the texture was more like a moist powder rather than a cream. I almost never use that. So you see, jadi keraja.

I never complete the whole regime before I go to school nor before I go to bed. Either I was always in a rush or just too damn lazy. State of my face at that time; Very dry with a few red spots on either side of it. Skin was PEELING!You can actually see huge flakes of my dried up skin. Sorry if this is gross. ;D

I stopped going for facials after that. Still used their produts though. It wasn't until last May/June did my mom take me to a clinic at Gadong to get my face checked. One of my Aunts recommended one of the doctors there.

After the chinese doctor inspected my face, he suggested using Neutrogena as a daily facial wash. He also mentioned that I shouldn't use make-up, scrubs or anything "that could be harsh to the skin" since I've got very sensitive skin. Other than the facial wash, he prescribed me to a medical solution which claims to reduce spots.

I wished I found out about the doctor sooner, cause all the things he suggested actually works. My face was already doing better after some time. My skin stopped peeling and my spots visibly reduced. At that exact moment, I began to appreciate and love my skin.

Not trying to say that I've got a clear face. I do tend get spots now and again but at least now I can control it.

So to sum it up, I may not have flawless skin but I sure give it love. (:

Wished I had her skin.. Argh!Haha. Sasak. &Oh!Her hair jua!!

My batman.

2009-06-13T21:26:00.000+01:00

(6:28 PM) SF07.:	kalau u tegugur always remember dat if i was there i'd help u up hehe
(6:28 PM) aiien.:	hahhahaa ;D
(6:29 PM) SF07.:	i'd come running to u
(6:29 PM) aiien.:	adehhh
(6:29 PM) SF07.:	n help u up while u pretend to look as if it hurts
(6:29 PM) aiien.:	thats sweet (:
(6:29 PM) SF07.:	hehehe

Life in London

2009-06-13T17:43:00.000+01:00

This one's for Annie. (: This is the very building where I currently live in. Up on the sixth floor. Modern but very limited.

I sometimes bake when I've got nothing else to do.

I sleep a lot nowadays. Compared to when I was back in Brunei, I hardly even sleep during the day.. Night time included. Haha.

I normally watch these two to kill time and for my dose of teen drama.

Haha. I do this a lot, 'till I'm all out of cash. Can't help it. Just so tempting.
I blog. (: At times.
Log in to Facebook daily.
Everyday.
This one too.
Current hobby.
Current instrument. Dad's planning to buy a proper piano when we get back home. So that's good news.
Places I've been.

Madame Tussaud's Wax Collection.

London Dungeon.

Picadilly circus/Oxford circus? Siuk jalan jalan here.
London Bridge.
King Henry's Castle.

THORPE PARK!
BBC Centre.
Legoland. (:

Other than those stated above. I've been to a couple of museums here. The most interesting one would be the one with the mummy.

Planning to go to Alton Towers sometime during the cuzzies visit. Should be fun. (:

Ariff Yusri.

2009-06-11T19:30:00.000+01:00

You wanted me to blog, but I don't really have any idea what about to blog.. So.. Here goes.

Let me start with, I MISS YOU SO MUCH! You're one of the many people whom I'm missing very badly.

Wow. I still can't believe it's already been half a year. I still have that lovey dovey feeling, the goo-goo eyes and the "gravity won't keep me down" thing going on. I'm amazed at how you can make that feeling last. You make me want this to last so badly. I so can't wait to be back in your arms. You have no idea how great that sounds to me. You've sacrificed a lot for me, I'd keep you away from your sleep just cause I want to chat with you. You call me up when I'm mad at you for something worthless and for other matters as well. I end up extending the call time more than you intended. Sampai tebar wah. ): I'm so mean.. I'm so sorry baby.

But you... you don't mind at all. Anything to keep me smiling. Well, at least that's what you told me. Hahaha ;D. I believe you, don't worry. (: Sigh. Felt like it was just yesterday I was comtemplating whether to cancel our first meet-up or not. I'm so glad I'm not that shallow of a person. Thought of how it was very sweet of you to make the effort.

With you, I feel so safe and secure. That doesn't come very often. And yes, I do wanna spend my life with you. *Was listening to our official song on repeat while I did this.* (:
I love you, Ariff Yusri.

Official song. Thanks Annie ;D

2009-06-07T21:30:00.003+01:00

Annie told me to have a listen to a song by Tamia and Eric Benet, she said it's perfect for me. (: So I did. The song well suited Ariff and I. Thanks again babe. (((:

Ariff said that she gave us our official song. Thanks Annie. :D

(5:12 PM) SF07.:	hehe apa nya c annie kan napa ia tarus2 cakap catu haha or do u tell her how we love each other everyday
(5:12 PM) aiien.:	Annie says: ok dangar tamia - spend my life with you. it would be perfect for you. hahaha aiien. says: hahah adeh

Haha. I so don't tell her that!Apalah.. Orang pun boleh sanak tu. ;D

Less than 5 months to go 'till balik kampung!
Less than 2 months 'till Paris.
Less than 2 weeks 'till Amit Said and family comes to London.
Less than 12 days 'till Ka Amalina and Abang Awee comes over to spend some nights.
Less than 48 hours 'till Babah's bday.
Less than an hour 'till I sleep. Haha. (:

Baby, work.

2009-06-05T20:41:00.001+01:00

Happy 6th months anniversary to us!(((:

Have a laugh

2009-06-04T00:23:00.002+01:00

My version of Frere Jacques

2009-06-02T23:00:00.002+01:00

Pharoah Jackass,

Pharoah Jackass,
Do re mi,
Do re mi,
Falalalalala,
Falalalalala,
Ding dong ding,
Ding dong ding.

The real one:
Frere Jacques,
Frere Jacques,
Dormez vous? Dormez vous?
Sonnez les matines,
Sonnez les matines,
Ding ding dong,
Ding ding dong.

I subconsciously came up with my one version when I played it on the keyboard. Not long after that, Fatin came and sang the song in French. Didn't know that it was actually, BROTHER JOHN!;DDDD

I'm so bad at nursery songs I tell you. At one time, a friend of mine asked me to sing "Itsy Bitsy Spider". I forgot the lyrics. Instead of "Itsy Bitsy Spider climbed up the water spout", I changed it to, "Itsy Bitsy Spider climbed up the pipe".

My lullaby for bed is usually "1 little, 2 little, 3 little indians". Its Ariff's favorite!Hahaha ;D

3 things

2009-05-31T18:48:00.002+01:00

About 3 things that I am very clear about:

I do not look at all good in maxi dresses. They make me look like I've got a bloated tummy.
Its days like today where I wish I could just go naked. I am so not loving the British Summer.
My boyfriend loves me. Thanks for putting in all the effort baby.

Hot hot hot

2009-05-29T20:52:00.004+01:00

London's getting hot. ): I mean, roasting hot!!It was 31 degrees Celsius. I know this cause I saw a huge billboard with a small digital block telling the time and the temperature. 31 degrees, seriously.

I regret wearing jeans and a long sleeved shirt which was a dark one today when we went out for lunch. We got there by foot. It was torture. Under the scorching heat. That's ironic y'know, cause when it's cool outside, I'd go with a light short sleeved shirt with lightweight pants.

I hope Brunei won't be that hot when I get back... I wish. Don't we all now?Hahaha.

Ahh~no worries, my Batman will surely fan me. (((((:

Random.

2009-05-28T20:27:00.008+01:00

Tinky Winky Syad. HAHA!

Matt Lanter. One word: Hot. *drools*For my very own caped crusader who's now sleeping, safe and sound. (:
Forever you'll be, my Batman.

Youtube vids of some of the rides I did take

2009-05-25T19:05:00.001+01:00

I heart Thorpe Park

2009-05-25T18:58:00.002+01:00

It was AMAZING!!

Seriously, I don't think anything could beat Thorpe Park. It just... wow. Seriously. The rides were heart-pumping. Pity I didn't get to ride the Saw. ): Of all the rides I took, I really love the Colossus. The record-breaking ten loops roller coaster. So worth waiting in line. I managed to take a ride on the Stealth, 80mph in 2 seconds. Just that rush.. Sigh. I'm speechless. All I can say is, wow. I lost my sunglasses there. ): When we were going down, it flew from my neckline. Ahh well~

Photos up in FB.

I only give excuses. So it seems.

2009-05-24T23:02:00.003+01:00

Off to Thorpe park tomorrow.

Am I really going there or am I just pretending?YOU be the judge. I can only give excuses now, can't I??

I feel fat.

2009-05-23T19:28:00.002+01:00

We had lunch at Jom Makan restaurant at Trafalgar Square. I prefer C&R. The Char Kway Teow was tasteless. So not worth it. We then headed to a cinema at Oxford Circus. Mannn~it's so fun there. They had two floors of arcade, there was even a bowling alley. Siukkkkkk~I'd totally drag my cousins there in June. We went to the ground floor and saw the jumping contraption above. It was so fun and exhilarating. For a moment there, I really felt like I was floating on air, right before I went soaring back down anyway. We then watched Night At The Museum 2. I give it 7.5/10. (:

Just waiting to be...

2009-05-19T20:48:00.004+01:00

With my loved ones back home.

Aku rindu kamu semua.): Seriously. I could go on & on & on about everyone that I miss and what I'd usually be doing with them. Sigh. Just a few more months to go..

Memories that remain intact down in memory lane. Not even the tiniest detail chipped. I'll cherish.

My LDR

2009-05-18T23:44:00.006+01:00

Out of boredom, I googled "How to survive LDRs." As I've mentioned before, I do really wanna make this one work, hence the research to keep it together. I'm proud to say that we've been doing most of the things to help this relationship survive. Most of the credit goes to him though, cause I always get moodswings..

1. Communicate honestly and clearly. In any relationship , being straightforward is very important. Make sure that you are able to communicate with your partner openly about your feelings about any matter--relationshipy or otherwise. He ALWAYS makes sure of this. He won't rest until I tell him what's bothering me.

2. Communicate regularly. When you don't see someone everyday, it can be easy to lapse into the habit of just talking when something major happens. Make sure to set aside time to talk to each other on the phone at least a couple times a week. Schedule the time if you have to. Everyday baby. (:

3. Communicate about the little things. If you cannot talk to you partner everyday, keep a small journal of what is going on in your life--include your feelings, thoughts, reactions and conclusions. This will keep you both on the same page regarding those small matters of daily life. Yeap. Even the tiniest details. Like, what did you have for lunch today?

4. Communicate lovingly. LDRs can bring frustrating for both people at times. Be patient with one another and communicate with affection and tact as well as honestly. We do. (:

5. Don't just communicate, do things! Read the same book, pray together, go on a "date," watch the the same TV show or movie and discuss it afterwords. Be creative!We did play a game once on msn...

It's you who makes my everyday special. (:
Pity we didn't do the classic holding-hands-at-the-beach that time. Oh well. Next time then.

What else can i say.. I'm in love.

2009-05-18T21:18:00.002+01:00

I'm currently loving this track by Kelly Rowland. (:
Also made as my blog song.

Can u describe the moment

When two people fall in love

Some say the clouds will spin in circles
And the rain will turn to dust
The poor will start to laugh
Even the rich will start to cry
It can sneak up like a soldier
It can wake you up at night
That's what i feel when I'm standing here with you
It's what my heart has sworn to be true

This is love
It's writin on my face
It's the way i lean my body towards you
Even when I'm a 100 miles away
This is love like a diamond in the sand
It took so long to find you
I can't wait another day to say
This is love

ohh
this is love
yeah

You take my imperfections
And turn them into art
If i could change one thing about you
There would be no place to start
You are safety without numbers
You are dangerously wild
But you're sweeter than rock candy
And you ease my inner child
That's what i feel when i'm standing here with you
That's what my heart has sworn to be true

This is love
It's written on my face
It's the way i lean by body towards you
Even when i'm a 100 miles away
This is love like a diamond in the sand
It took so long to find you
I can't wait another day to say
This is love

ohh
yeah

No i'm no easy angel
I'm moody like the wind
I am impatient, complicated
I am fragile deep within
But you're no fool
And i'm no little girl
Have we not found there is love in the world?

This is love
I said it's written on my face
It's the way i lean my body towards you
Even when i'm a 100 miles away
This is love like a diamond in the sand
It took so long to find you
I can't wait another day to say
This is love

oh
this is love, love, love
this, this is love

Yes. This is love. (:
You love my angry face, right baby?;D

Face paint.

2009-05-17T22:07:00.005+01:00

We went out for lunch today. Initially wanting to go to Bonda Cafe, but since it's under renovation, we headed to C&R. We then went to Whiteleys. Up to the first floor. That's when I saw a face painting booth just at the entrance of Books etc. So apalagii~;D

Yesterday, we went to KFC halal. Oh god. Batah rasanya nda makan KFC. Unfortunately, the FC there had no proper tables. Just a bar which acts as a table and no stools. Apakan KFC nya anii~ Terpaksa lah makan bediri. But heck, it was worth it. My mom purposely brought paper plates and Maggi chilli sauce cause my parents knew that there wasn't any proper seating available.

After that, we went to an shopping village. We split up into two, I was with Mom while Syah and Fatin were with Dad. While we were searching for L'occitane, we saw the three of them just a few steps away from us.

"Cuba kau tarik bag si syah ah, " Mom said. Haha. I did as told. Tugging lightly on her shoulder bag. She turned around immediately, as soon as she say me she said the eff word. In my defense, I told her Mom made me do it. Hahaha. Mom then told me to do the same to Dad. In which, I did! Haha. My Dad did turn around, eff word not included. He just said, "Ehhhhhh~, kalau orang lain kana tumbuk udah tu,"

Thank god I didn't get a smack in the face.

Why you're NOT lousy

2009-05-13T22:10:00.003+01:00

You failing to make me smile doesn't make you lousy. Honestly, you're the perfect boyfriend I could ever ask for, in my eyes. You'd do the things that makes me be thankful to have someone like you in my life. The way you look into my eyes when you say "I love you,".

The way you hug me before we part. When you go all mad at me when I get too close with a guy friend. When you say, "ehhhhhhhh jalannnnnn lagiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..". The way you make me laugh whenever I'm down. I know I've mentioned this a lot of times to you but I'd like to say it again. Your everyday texts, especially morning texts. (: I love that. When you go goofy on me. The way you do things that'll end up with you getting a new nickname from me without knowing it. That puppydog-pout I adore, that's cute. When you phone me up when I'm mad at you. When you skip night-outs with your friends just to chat with me. You being stingy with through the phone kisses, but you always do give me at least one in the end. When you go all mushy. That's a rare one. The way you can crack jokes at emotional moments. Haha. Remember "Mee goweng,"? (: Couldn't stop laughing that night.

That boyish grin of yours, with your aviators. (: I miss seeing you like that. You're not at all lousy. You're not even close to lousy. See, you made me smile the whole time while I was doing this. You did it without any effort. So please, don't you ever think of yourself being lousy. I've got a great boyfriend who's name is Ariff which is also my Batman in disguise and I'm proud to say it. That's a bit long isn't it..

I've got Ariff Yusri as my boyfriend and I feel blessed. Hmm. Both of them works. Manasaja lah. Bottom line.

My boyfriend's great.. and i love him, very dearly.... and he's not the least bit lousy. (:

Emotions

2009-05-12T17:48:00.004+01:00

Uncontrollable. Inconsistent. And what.. upsetting.. Could be. Sigh.
One of the songs that inspired me to learn how to play the guitar. And of course the title does serve another purpose. Other than that, it reminds me of OGDC camp back in 2007.

1 year old blog.

2009-05-11T19:53:00.005+01:00

Happy 1st birthday to my blog! ;D

Haha. I just realized this when I saw my archives list. Wow.. It's like raising your own child.
*over*

My baby's growing up.. (': *sniffs* Haha. But this type of offspring doesn't require another human being, nor does it cry when being neglected. I would like to thank my chica, Annie for helping me raise it properly in the first place and making it complete, or at least I think it is..

But she did really help a lot. With the layouts, cbox, and lotsa lotsa other stuff that I was too kuno to know about. Haha. I can't thank you enough woman! Now, I'm okay with the codes and the basic ones. (:

P/s: My dear batman. I love you baby. Sleepwell my caped crusader.

imy.

2009-05-11T10:29:00.003+01:00

Went to Whiteleys Odeon for this. Initially, I wanted to watch Wolverine, but Dad said an adult has to accompany the kids when watching a movie. I did wanna watch Hannah Montana, but not as much compared to Wolverine. 6/10 for ratings. I liked the series better.

Told Dad about my lomo-wants. Katanya jangan tah, pakai film ngaleh cuci. Bali slr saja. Digital bisai.

)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

Anyway, I woke up at 2am+ this morning. The thought of him woke me up. At times, its hard for to believe that I'm all the way here, and not there. Why am I not there?Oh right, aku disini banar. Sighh.

I can not tell you how much I miss you in only words. My words can only express so little, no matter how much I try to say something almost equivalent to it.

"... Do you have any idea how much I freaking love you boy?!!!...."
"...I freaking love you so much too girl!..."

Haha. Extracts from texts. (: You always make me smile. I can't imagine you saying that with a straight face.

I'm ever so happy to be yours. (:

Happy 18th ;D

2009-05-09T11:09:00.002+01:00

Happy 18th Birthday Mus!;D
Green's your fave colour right?If I'm not mistaken. Anyway, have a blast. You owe me a slice of cheesecake and kway teow. Don't forget that!;DD

First piano lesson

2009-05-07T21:43:00.002+01:00

My piano teacher, Miss Kathleen came over for the first time. I was so glad that she wasn't the strict type. She was in fact, quite friendly. (: So she began the first lesson by teaching me how to sit properly, and how to position my hands in the correct way. After that, she told me about the repeating keys on the keyboard. Then she taught me how to read music notes. That was the fun bit. Amazing how much we could cover in less than 1 hour.

Starting next week I'll have 3 hours of piano lessons. Monday, Wednesday and Friday, 1 hour each day.

Happy 5th. (:

2009-05-06T13:25:00.000+01:00

Happy 5th month anniversary to us!;D

Happy birthday, dear friend.

2009-05-04T13:22:00.000+01:00

Happy 19th Birthday Yan! (:

♥

2009-05-03T00:19:00.005+01:00

I like it when you're mushy. Makes me see another side of you, more expressive. (:

I seriously can't wait to get back home. I miss you so much. ): More than I could ever say. You asked me to add this bit;

"Do mention that I miss you too. So so much,"

At least that's how I remember it.

You know, I'd love to clear all of your doubts about me. I know you're still in the getting-to-know-you stage, but trust me. I won't ever be disloyal to you. I hope you'd hold on to my promise, no matter what happens. My old days are long gone, I've told you that before. *I feel like I'm an aged being or something. Haha.*

I really do want this to last. One of the things I really care about.

In 3 more days, we'd reach our 5th. That's really something to me. You changed me, for the better. Thank you. (:

Food

2009-05-01T23:00:00.003+01:00

Upon your request, I will now talk about food.

Yes people. What we can't live without, even if you're anorexic. No offense.

You once asked me what are my favorites, so you could get them, not wanting me to starve on the first meeting. That's so kind of you. I'm pretty sure what I'm about to list down are the ones you'd already know, or at least I assume you know about. Let's start, shall we?

I'd like to start off with desserts, snacks, the good stuff. (:
Mars Bars. You bought me one on that certain day. You even offered to get me the ice-cream. Just one of the little things that I consider sweet.
Ice-cream. Whether it's the basic lolly bought from small shops to massive amounts of different flavors at western restaurants, I love them all.
Chocolate muffins. I've grown a liking to Mum's bakery's muffins ever since the day I first tasted it which was last year.
Chocolate. Who doesn't love chocolate??

Main.
I could go on & on with this one. Seriously. ;D A few of them;-
Breaded chicken with fries at Swensens. Absolute fave.
Crispy Seafood Noodles from LaMee. I never get tired of this one.
My Grandma's cooking. Never gets old.
Shepard's pie at Manjaro.
Dimsum. Is this a main or a starter?
Kway teow!Any place which is hygienic would do, but it has to taste good.
Tandoori chicken at Le Taj or De Anna.
Pizza at.. where else?Pizza hut.
I'd go for any cuisine actually. (:

Starters.
I don't usually do starters. I'd just go straight to main. ;DD

Fast food.
Kfc.

I don't do salads except potato salads. Including leafy veggies, I'd go for crunchy ones. Carrots are excluded.

Drinks.
Water. My number one.
Iced apple tea.
Apple juice.

Macam menu tah pulang. That makes me hungry.... Haha. Okay, I think that's enough of that. Off to bed. (:

10 things

2009-04-29T21:38:00.003+01:00

The title about was kindly given by you. Thanks, you. (:

10 things about what you might ask?
I'm thinking about that as I am typing this.

Hmm...

Okay, I've got something.
10 things that I miss about Brunei:
1. Home. Yes, I do miss my home very much. All this time I took privacy for granted. Not caring actually. But here, gosh, privacy seems like the first essential thing that I would love to have back.
2. The food. Sure, the food here is quite okay, but I miss my Grandma's pinyaram, apam, karipap and all those nyummy Bruneian food you can't find here. Ambuyat is excluded.
3. Nikki the cat. I miss you, you old geezer you. Selalu menyamal tu kucing ah. He's a fluffy, white Persian cat with a short temper. Very cute when he looks up to you with those bright blue eyes. (: He's currently at my Grandma's house. He's still mad at how things are, he thinks we've abandoned him. Pandai menjaling lagi tu. Seriously. Pemarah.
4. School life. Oh this I miss the most. I've poured out quite a lot on this one in one of the previous posts.
5. Going out. This one's another one. I really miss going out with my BFFs, boyfriend and with the others of course. (:
6. Late night calls from him. ): Dulu everynight.
7. Rumah Nini Mentiri. I miss the gatherings we have at Mentiri. I miss chit-chatting with the cousins. Sighh. I really miss you guys. Want me to mention names?Nurul, Amal, Shikin, Erah, Pik and Iyul. Not forgetting my cute lil' cousins. (:
8. Going out for newly released movies with the fam. We used to go out for movies at the Mall. Esp when one of them wants to really watch it at the cinemas.
9. Dynasty for breakfast. Aher aher baru tah selalu.. Pasal babah baru cuti. Before that he was too busy for us.
10. Open house for Raya. Every year, we always hold two open houses. One for family, another for our friends and Dad's colleagues. Ahh~ memories.

Upon his request

2009-04-28T19:15:00.002+01:00

You asked me to do a bit of blogging tonight. But you didn't give me any ideas. Thank you, you. (: Let's blog about you then. I never get tired of blogging about you anyway, so might as well.

You are now 24, coming 25 this November. You are very tall in my opinion. You have a great bod. (Y) You've got that cute chuckle I love. You've got that smile which made me fall for you in the first place. You have a great sense of humor. You love slow r'n b songs. You are currently into photography. You always smell nice when I'm around. (: You understand me. You care for me. You'd risk anything just to see me smile. You treat me like no guy has ever treated me before. You look into my eyes when you say those three words. You call me up every night before we went to bed back in Brunei. You were willing to take that chance of having a LDR with that little time we spent to get to know each other before I left.

You made me realize that having just one really is enough. You make me fall for you each passing day, like its the very first time. You think about the future with me in it. You made me think of putting this all down in this post. You make me cry whenever I dream about you leaving me. You make me wanna cry whenever we have webcam sessions, I can see your face but I can't touch it. You make me go, "Haha. Thats really cute." when you make that kiddy face at me. You spoil moments like when I'm being sappy about you, but not all the time, like I said, GREAT sense of humor. Best of all, you love me. And I know you know i do too.

Notice that the fonts in pink? Your new favourite colour. ;DD

My chick's bday

2009-04-28T11:10:00.000+01:00

Happy 18th Birthday Baby!
Have a great one. I'm so thankful to have you as my bestfriend. Always been there for me through thick and thin. Thank you. (: I love you chica.

My Batman. (:

2009-04-25T23:45:00.003+01:00

Meet my very own Batman!;DD Haha. Well, at least he's got the mask thing down.
I love you Batman. (:

The list

2009-04-24T21:58:00.002+01:00

I asked Ariff to list down things that he wants to do when i get back home. (:

(1:08 PM) SF07.:	1- Hug u ever so tite fer at least 2 hours without letting go. 2- Give u ur prezzies ( i've got surprises fer u too u know) . 3- stare at u all nite. 4- bring u out to the beach n just spend time with u there. 5- eat out at a nice place n watch u eat. 6- take loads of pics with u everywhere we go. 7- Has been deleted by me. 8- do my best to make u smile everytime i'm with u.. hehe that's just a few of wat i cud think of
(1:08 PM) aiien:	hahhaha aww
(1:09 PM) aiien:	thats a thousand times better and specific than mine... hahha
(1:09 PM) SF07.:	haha show me urs now! hehe
(1:09 PM) aiien:	thats sweet of u (: hahah really really brief
(1:09 PM) SF07.:	haha bah laju
(1:09 PM) aiien:	1. Surprise Ariff. 2. Get Ariff to go for tonsil removal. 3. Visit Ariff as often as I can. Cook for him(?) 4. Beach with Ariff and the others.
(1:10 PM) aiien:	very simple. (:
(1:10 PM) SF07.:	hehehe
(1:10 PM) SF07.:	no 2 atu.. err.. hahaha indaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
(1:10 PM) aiien:	no errr mesti!
(1:10 PM) SF07.:
(1:10 PM) aiien:	kalau me sekolah cemana me kan visit u?): cemana me kan antar what i cooked for u?
(1:11 PM) SF07.:	visit?
(1:11 PM) aiien:	cant i?
(1:11 PM) SF07.:	visit kemana?
(1:11 PM) aiien:	i cant???
(1:11 PM) SF07.:	kemana?
(1:11 PM) aiien:	if u're going for the surgery........
(1:11 PM) SF07.:	hahaha owh hehehe lol syg ani.. ofcoz u can lah
(1:11 PM) aiien:	apakan
(1:11 PM) SF07.:	indakan nda bleh
(1:11 PM) aiien:	manatau

Now that really makes me wanna go back home quick. Oh well. Just a few more months to go. April is about to come to an end. Soon it'll be May, almost half through the year. I know I'll have loads of fun in June cause my cousins are coming, and the following month too. The small trip to Paris. (: Not much happening in Aug.. September I'll start schooling at Holland Park Sixth Form School. October, November nothing planned yet... Then it'll be December. Byebye London. Hello Brunei. Getting reunited with the two best babes, Ariff (:, my beloved cousins and my friends. Sigh.. I miss kamu so much. ):

Busy days

2009-04-23T22:21:00.002+01:00

Sigh... I can't help but to miss the busy school days. Reading my friends' blogs, their rants about the overloading schoolwork, complaining about how inhuman teachers are nowadays. Talking about how some teachers are fun when they're funny, and how shocking rumors spread throughout the campus. Okay, maybe i don't know the last bit nowadays, cause its not like they're gonna post something like that for public display... Hmm.. Maybe they would..

Anyway, I just miss it. I miss it when I have my Math homework piling up to mountains higher than the highest peak of Mount Everest. I miss it when I have to balance my time with my 'social life' and my schoolwork. I miss it when i have to wake up early each Friday for my Biology extra classes. I miss it when I have to stay up late in the middle of the night just to finish up assignments that were given weeks in advance, but I just had to choose the night just right before it's due. I miss it when I ask Uncle to stop by at the nearest small shop cause I had to buy top-up cards for my phone. I miss it when I spend my Personal Study time to eat/chat/jalan2 with the girls. I miss it when I sometimes skip Guitar practice cause I thought it wasn't really a proper lesson. I miss it when Madam Sikha goes garang. I miss it when Mr.Singh does that moonwalk dance, the peace-out-dude, and jokes about almost everyone on certain days that is. I miss it when my Bio teacher is so energetic and can sometimes scare me. For my EAS teachers.. you guys are good. (:

I'm dying to go to school!! Just the thought of me going back to Brunei and returning back to the busy-school life is just so exciting!! I may sound like a nerd, but hey, I've had had quite enough of holiday time. I'm practically aching to get my brain to function again, overloading it with tonnes and tonnes of facts. Can't wait, CAN'T WAIT!!!

Enough about that, I'm now currently working on a song. No, I'm not gonna compose one, but that's not a bad idea actually... As soon as I get proper lessons. Okay?;DD Haha. Perasan. Anyway, I'm practising on a certain song. It's for that certain someone.. Yes, you baby. (: I'll do my best to play it nicely. It was suppose to be a surprise, to top off the other one, but he made me tell him. Boo you. >:( I'll post a video when I get that done. Batah pulang lagi tuu. ;DDD

Bah. Tidur tidur. Nights. (:

Buat apa ah... hmm

2009-04-22T22:46:00.002+01:00

Last night, Ariff asked me what I would usually do after he goes to bed. I told him that i watch 90210 and friends. If I'm in the mood, i'd go blogging. Well, a new thing to add there, playing the keyboard. Yes, I'm not as jobless as I was before now, aren't i? At least, I've got something else to do rather than just going online.

I youtube-d a few songs that I've always wanted to play by my own. 'I hate this part right here' by the PCD looked quite simple, so I gave that a try. Might be a little off, but hey, its not like I've got a coach or something. So Dad saw me fiddling with the keyboard after he came back home.

"Eh awu ah!Baik pulang kau belajar eh, " Dad said as soon as he heard me playing. "Mau?" He added.

I could swear my eyes were shining immediately. ;D I nodded in reply.

A few minutes after that he came back from his & Mom's room.
"Yang mana kau mau?Ia datang kemari atau kau kesana?" He asked.
"Manasaja," I replied. Either way, i don't really mind.

Finally, I've got something useful to do. (: Why didn't this came up before?

These songs

2009-04-21T17:51:00.008+01:00

Haircut

2009-04-21T17:39:00.002+01:00

I had a haircut yesterday, yes yes, i know, not much of a difference. The hairdresser at Slick! didn't want to take so much length from my head. I specifically asked for a haircut that'll make my face look thin. She suggested soft layers at the front as well as the back. I then asked, whether a fringe would help, she replied that getting a fringe won't do me any good, unless i wanted a fat face. So yes, i waved bye-bye to the look that i originally wanted. Don't blame me, blame genetics for giving me my face shape. I didn't wanna waste money on a look that i know i wouldn't like. Sounds fair, right?Considering that they charge huge greens just for a haircut here. At this one salon, they charged GB50= $ 100-$150 Brunei dollars, i could have gotten my hair straightened with that kind of money! Seriously, the salons here are cccrrrrrrraaaaaazzzzzzzyyyyyyyy!!

I want a new look.

2009-04-18T23:02:00.003+01:00

I apologize for my absence... Been 'busy' with things. But when I think about it, who is there to apologize to? Ahh... My invisible readers, of course.

Anyways, I've been longing for a haircut since... i don't know... Batah banar jua udah tu ah. Sadly, my 'condition' is in the way. So i'd have to wait for it to dissolve. I've been sticking to my current hairstyle since Form 3, 2005. YEES!!I know, that long!? Fear of changes, I'd say. When I look at myself in the mirror, I see my Form 3 self looking back at me. Wow. Talk about outdated. In my eyes, I'd only see that my current hair works best. But then i start to think, it's getting a tad too boring. The same look for years and years.

That guy.

2009-04-14T17:58:00.001+01:00

You look cute when you beg. Making me helpless.

McD halal.

2009-04-12T00:42:00.004+01:00

We went to McD halal for lunch today!;DD Located at South Hall. Finally, junk food, at last. Felt like heaven eating it. (:

My red eye is getting better, alhamdulilah. There was this one person who was very "concern" about my state. I just remembered this bit when i was rereading the chat logs.

(3:30 PM) Like my ferrari?:	Ui..
(3:30 PM) aiien:	yo
(3:31 PM) Like my ferrari?:	Npa bngkak matamu?
(3:31 PM) aiien:	hahaha entah eh pasal ada somethin kali wah
(3:31 PM) aiien:	allergic maybe
(3:32 PM) Like my ferrari?:	Atau tliat laki2 tlanjang?
(3:32 PM) aiien:	ANTAM!!!! labih jua eh
(3:32 PM) Like my ferrari?:	Manatau..

Aww~Si haziq ingau kan aku.. How sweet... NOT!! ;DD You're the most annoying cousin i know. Yes, you so deserve that title.

One of the people i miss.

2009-04-11T22:54:00.003+01:00

Haha. Aku senyum cali. Oh well. Sigh. I miss you so much. ): It's been too long since i haven't touched that face of yours. Just a few more months... Sabar...

I'm sure you remember this one. Let's go to the beach again next time.

I'm just so in love.

2009-04-08T21:53:00.003+01:00

Sigh.. I feel so in love right now. I'm sorry if you guys think I'm always being mushy, but i can help it. ;D Seriously, its like whenever i think of him, i get that butterflies-in-the-stomach feeling. I usually get over this during the first month in an ordinary one, but this. I really don't know how you do it. With the whole being apart for so far going on. My feelings for you are still so strong. Even stronger than the strongest bond that keeps elements together i dare say, now what was that again? I'm sure its not metallic nor covalent.. Hmm. Gotta check that one up. ;p

Anyhoots~ back to my story. ;D

How could this happen to me?Its like I'm under a spell on which i don't mind being cast under one bit. So so so so so so in lalalalalove. Almost four months of not seeing each other... and it's gonna carry on for another eight, excluding webcam sessions that is. ;D

We're gonna make it through this. Right?(:

I find it amazing how i still feel so attached to you, so in need for you, so in love with you and longing for you. There you go again, making me all mushy writing these stuffs now. Blame him guys, not me. ;DDDD

Like Aunty Suhana would say, "Bahagia ia sudah,"

Yes... I am bahagia, with all my loved ones.
Very bahagia.
I love that word. Bahagia. (:

I love you

2009-04-07T21:51:00.002+01:00

I yahoo-ed "I love you" in different languages. Two that caught my attention.

Indonesian: Saya mengasihi saudara.
Malay: Saya sayangmu.

Hahhaa. ;D

I think I'll just stick to "I love you".. but I'll make an exception for Spanish & French. I find it sexy. Don't you?

Kew Gardens

2009-04-07T21:40:00.002+01:00

Went to Kew Gardens today. I found it very enjoyable, despite my less-than-healthy condition. My nose was runny, my left eye was irritated and i was having my periods.. Sigh..

We took the tube to get back home. The one that sends us back to Paddington was delayed for 19 mins. We could've taken an alternate route, but that'll take far too many stops here and there. The tube was packed anyway so there's no point of going in. As soon as we arrived at Paddington, we went to Flames grill to order take-away. Before that, there was this guy handing out The London Paper right outside the station, Syah took one. The guy handed me another,but i shooked my head, pointing to Syah's copy. Syah laughed. -_-

Photos from Kew Gardens can be found at my facebook.

Knowing

2009-04-06T19:09:00.003+01:00

Saw Knowing today at Odeon Whiteleys. Very disturbing, that movie. But it was fun. Most of the scenes made me jump from my seat. I give it a 7/10. Similar to The Day The Earth Stood Still.

Happy 4th (:

2009-04-06T19:03:00.004+01:00

Happy 4th month anniversary to us! (:

Somehow, I like that photo of you.

I love you, Ariff.

You bring me smiles.

2009-04-01T12:35:00.002+01:00

Haha. The loop-sided figure is supposed to be toast with jam. (:

Unstoppable

2009-03-31T14:13:00.002+01:00

Love the straight hair with the fringe. (: Might be adopting that cut for easter.

A quickie. (:

2009-03-28T22:46:00.003Z

Have not been blogging recently. There's a reason for that. Anyway, Dad just confirmed our trip to Paris in July the other day. Yayy. (: But it's just for four days tho.

Right, off to bed. Nights. (: Told ja it's just a quickie.

Dead and gone

2009-03-19T14:31:00.003Z

My Mom once told me that I'm selfish angry little girl, and I had to change that. I was about 11 at that time. I have to admit, I was pretty damn self-centered in my younger days. Not caring even a bit about the people around me. I don't know why exactly I was that way. Very different from the very young me. Cheerful and cheeky. But when i started growing up to my tween years things changed. I always had this grim look plastered on my face. Rarely did I ever smile. Only with people that were close to me would I open up, but just ever so slightly.

Came secondary school. I was still the girl with the grim look- almost never smiles. Hahaha. Then I learnt that having friends is fun. I started to "care". Felt feelings for my friends, mind you, not the gay type of feelings, but friend-loving ones.

Then I learned to smile. A genuine one. Anyway, my point is, I'm glad I changed. I'm glad I think of people first rather than myself. Most of the times anyway. I am only human after all. (: