I can't say how much I despise London for taking away my valuable senior year. I vowed to myself that I'd be preeminent in my studies when it came to my senior year. I'd willing work my behind to achieve my goals. But that was way before I'd known my Dad was sent off to London to do his masters.

True, London is exciting. There's always something right round the corner. Take away all that, what does that leave me with.. ?A rusted brain. Especially with me not going to school at the moment.

Talked to Ariff about my futura, I've always wanted a career in medical studies. Its what I've always dreamed of. Working as a medical doctor. I've been so keen to learning Biology. I dare say, that I've considered it my nature even, having it as my strongest collateral. I've always thought of it as being my main focus.

Then he suggested to start considering Law as an alternative. He made Law sound so much more stimulating than medical. So yes, I now have a much more wider range to rake over. I thank you. (:

Let's just see if I can measure up to their requirements next year. For sure, it won't be smooth sailing. For now, I have no choice but to let visions of my senior year haunt me endlessly and hopefully motivate me into becoming a zombie who knows nothing of the word fun or anything closely related to it.



Syah lifted Ariff Jr from his place.
"Mikin barat kau ani eh," She said as she held the Grey Bear like a child.

Like most girls... and guys. There was that frustrating moment in your life where your face gets major breakouts all over. I've had my fair share of that. Yes, it was torture. You lose your self-confidence and may also feel threatened by other fellow mates whom are blessed with flawless skin. Boo you flawless people!!

I started to get breakouts when I was in Form 4. At first, I thought it's completely okay to get spots since everyone has them. How naive. Haha. So I didn't do anything about it. I didn't use any skincare product or whatsoever, cause I remember my mom refusing to buy me any of those when I was about 12. Fyi, my skin was still crystal clear at that time. She said, it'll just do damage to my face. Months after months, YES MONTHS PEOPLE! My mom couldn't stand looking at my state. Haha. My face was literally a tomato patch. She booked me a facial appointment at Herbaline. My skin did clear up after the first session, but it didn't last long. I had to go for facials thrice a month. Other than that, I had to use a couple of their products to prevent future breakouts. I had a soap daily cleanser, toner, face spray, some organic liquid from something I forgot and a "moisturizing cream".

A few drawbacks, the soap made my skin feel like it's been strecthed and nailed to my face bone.. Wait, is there such a bone?You get me right? Moving on, yes, it made my skin really dry. The toner, it was okay. But it was time consuming. The rest of it was okay, except for the "moisturizing cream", the texture was more like a moist powder rather than a cream. I almost never use that. So you see, jadi keraja.

I never complete the whole regime before I go to school nor before I go to bed. Either I was always in a rush or just too damn lazy. State of my face at that time; Very dry with a few red spots on either side of it. Skin was PEELING!You can actually see huge flakes of my dried up skin. Sorry if this is gross. ;D

I stopped going for facials after that. Still used their produts though. It wasn't until last May/June did my mom take me to a clinic at Gadong to get my face checked. One of my Aunts recommended one of the doctors there.

After the chinese doctor inspected my face, he suggested using Neutrogena as a daily facial wash. He also mentioned that I shouldn't use make-up, scrubs or anything "that could be harsh to the skin" since I've got very sensitive skin. Other than the facial wash, he prescribed me to a medical solution which claims to reduce spots.

I wished I found out about the doctor sooner, cause all the things he suggested actually works. My face was already doing better after some time. My skin stopped peeling and my spots visibly reduced. At that exact moment, I began to appreciate and love my skin.

Not trying to say that I've got a clear face. I do tend get spots now and again but at least now I can control it.

So to sum it up, I may not have flawless skin but I sure give it love. (:

This one's for Annie. (: This is the very building where I currently live in. Up on the sixth floor. Modern but very limited.

I sometimes bake when I've got nothing else to do.

I sleep a lot nowadays. Compared to when I was back in Brunei, I hardly even sleep during the day.. Night time included. Haha.

I normally watch these two to kill time and for my dose of teen drama.

Haha. I do this a lot, 'till I'm all out of cash. Can't help it. Just so tempting.
I blog. (: At times.
Log in to Facebook daily.
Everyday.
This one too.
Current hobby.
Current instrument. Dad's planning to buy a proper piano when we get back home. So that's good news.
Places I've been.

Madame Tussaud's Wax Collection.

London Dungeon.

Picadilly circus/Oxford circus? Siuk jalan jalan here.
London Bridge.
King Henry's Castle.

THORPE PARK!
BBC Centre.
Legoland. (:


Other than those stated above. I've been to a couple of museums here. The most interesting one would be the one with the mummy.

Planning to go to Alton Towers sometime during the cuzzies visit. Should be fun. (:

You wanted me to blog, but I don't really have any idea what about to blog.. So.. Here goes.

Let me start with, I MISS YOU SO MUCH! You're one of the many people whom I'm missing very badly.

Wow. I still can't believe it's already been half a year. I still have that lovey dovey feeling, the goo-goo eyes and the "gravity won't keep me down" thing going on. I'm amazed at how you can make that feeling last. You make me want this to last so badly. I so can't wait to be back in your arms. You have no idea how great that sounds to me. You've sacrificed a lot for me, I'd keep you away from your sleep just cause I want to chat with you. You call me up when I'm mad at you for something worthless and for other matters as well. I end up extending the call time more than you intended. Sampai tebar wah. ): I'm so mean.. I'm so sorry baby.

But you... you don't mind at all. Anything to keep me smiling. Well, at least that's what you told me. Hahaha ;D. I believe you, don't worry. (: Sigh. Felt like it was just yesterday I was comtemplating whether to cancel our first meet-up or not. I'm so glad I'm not that shallow of a person. Thought of how it was very sweet of you to make the effort.

With you, I feel so safe and secure. That doesn't come very often. And yes, I do wanna spend my life with you. *Was listening to our official song on repeat while I did this.* (:
I love you, Ariff Yusri.

Annie told me to have a listen to a song by Tamia and Eric Benet, she said it's perfect for me. (: So I did. The song well suited Ariff and I. Thanks again babe. (((:

Pharoah Jackass,

Pharoah Jackass,
Do re mi,
Do re mi,
Falalalalala,
Falalalalala,
Ding dong ding,
Ding dong ding.

The real one:
Frere Jacques,
Frere Jacques,
Dormez vous? Dormez vous?
Sonnez les matines,
Sonnez les matines,
Ding ding dong,
Ding ding dong.

I subconsciously came up with my one version when I played it on the keyboard. Not long after that, Fatin came and sang the song in French. Didn't know that it was actually, BROTHER JOHN!;DDDD

I'm so bad at nursery songs I tell you. At one time, a friend of mine asked me to sing "Itsy Bitsy Spider". I forgot the lyrics. Instead of "Itsy Bitsy Spider climbed up the water spout", I changed it to, "Itsy Bitsy Spider climbed up the pipe".

My lullaby for bed is usually "1 little, 2 little, 3 little indians". Its Ariff's favorite!Hahaha ;D